Monday, January 18, 2010

A Sudden Gush of Memories

+I actually have a lot of drafts for my blog. Coz everytime I'm feeling something, I'll go and type it out, but usually it's not published. Like the first sentence, I meant to use it as my FB status, but I hesitated and pressed the Cancel button in the end.

+I've been watching Glee, and besides the nice music, singing and dance routines, the story was what I could relate to. Glee is musical choir sort of club in a certain high school, and the teacher who is coaching it used to be from Glee as well. So in his passionate attempt to restore Glee to its former glory, he struggles with various issues, including pressure from the school, other clubs and himself.

+I could relate strongly to this because just like the teacher, I too have a strong passion for something, and that is doing council work. You can laugh and ridicule, just like how the kids in Glee are often ridiculed, but that is truly where my passion lies.

+Many a times when I look through all my old photos, I secretly wish that time can turn back, and we could all return to when we were 17 again, doing the things we love, learning and braving storms together. How I wish I could relive every single one of our arguments, and every one of my happy moments.

+I always tell people that I have a poor memory, but no one believes me. My memory of events don't go beyond 5 years, and many things that have happened are fading already. Only those which are really memorable remains. When people tell me that such and such a thing occurred during when and when, I will think for a moment, and try to recall it. But most of the time I fail. It's kind of frustrating because I do have a vague idea of what happened.

+I remember. How Mr Leow shouted at Weiming and pulled off his badge(did he?), how SCDC struggled to finish painting the ship for LINE camp at day 2, how Celeste and I almost fell asleep drawing the camp booklet for Chestnut Drive, how Amira suddenly sang 朋友 out of her window in Yunnan, how the guys jumped into a scalding hot spring and ran out again, how Bryan tried to teach Chacha to China kids, how Victor Limfei told us our council election campaign wasn't "campaign-y" enough, how I have over 10 JJ ties at home, how Bryan managed to get his election stickers on tidbits inside the vending machine, how we impromptu-ly painted Sherman's walls in a day, how Francis used to sit at Ivy's table, how the whole council used to outcast Francis, Francis' email to the council, how Peirong and Desmond were forced to leave, how Chendi and David used to be damn hilarious together, how Mr Leow called me and excitedly told me he wanted to do a 4-storey high banner - which was to become the first ever PD banner - and that was way before PD Block was finished, how KS was the first person to shout the assembly commands, how I always brought the announcement book home, how Christina suddenly came to school one day with Cleopatra hair, how Shaorong and Chianlim danced the gay Pop Ye Ye, how the Admin corner used to be in the Hall instead of LN, how Bryan and I got caught at the MRT for drinking 7-11 drinks, then pretended we were Japanese and Korean, how we used to have stupid trashing sessions in the old council room, how we always kena tekan by our seniors,how we burned Shaorong's whole foolscap pad at ECP and called him Gui Ye, how Benja became Benja, how Bel used to so emo, how I sat at the toilet floor with Hanyang, how I wished I could have kept all the smses from those years...but I can't, and I didn't and so many many memories would fade. It is inevitable, but I don't want them to. This is life, and we often don't really have a choice.

+If there are any more memorable events you think we should remember, please list them below in the comments!

+I don't even know why I'm trying so desperately to hang on to all these. I'm thinking that my decision to join council was one of the best decisions that I have ever made. Maybe it's because I've always been so low profile in RV, okay maybe not that low, but I wasn't popular or have that many friends. By friends, I mean close friends. I think I might have a problem maintaining relationships. But that's beside the point. By joining council, I learned to open myself up, and be to who I really am.

+I never really knew I could dance, let alone leading mass dance in front of the whole school. I never really knew I could do decorations either, but council gave me chance to showcase my capabilities. And even when I was in Brunei, I saw someone wearing my Love Fiesta T-shirt. (I don't think I told anyone this.) Council provided me with a valuable platform to try out new things, to make errors and to improve my socializing skills. All the "fame" that came with it, never does come easy. People always say we join council to get a better testimonial. That may be true, but in the end, we develop a true passion for what we do. Why else would we return and help our juniors?

+I guess all these emotions were triggered off when I returned to JJ a few days ago to help out with the 29th batch. They were supposed to be painting their PD Banner and they had been chalking/drawing the whole morning. At 2pm when I reached, they were packing up because it was about to rain. It reminded me so much of us last time. When it rained, we were totally doomed. It actually did happen once, but I can't remember which banner it was. We had to pull it in by force as the rain was too huge.

+Anyway, I met with the 29th batch and they are really polite and everything. It breaks my heart when I walked into the OPS room and saw 10 bottles of soap, and they told me that's all they have. Their budget wasn't enough for a PD Banner, but they insisted on having one, so they had to sew everything themselves. Only 2 new banners would be painted this year. Previous years, we had over 10. What's really sad is when they told me this, they were smiling.

+A few of them asked me if I would be back for OGL camp and Orientation. I said yes. Then they asked if anyone (at all) would come back for Orientation/JJ Night. I looked at them and said,"Don't worry, there will be."

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